Tuesday, August 26, 2008
After 10 years, I brought up the issue of conversion. Sinabi ko kay mommy "Ma, magagalit ka ba pag nagpa-convert ako?"
Usually kapag may tanong ako regarding sa galit ni mami sasabihin niya lang "ok lang yung anak, no problem"
Ito yung 1st time na narinig kong tuwiran niyang sinabi na "oo"
Yes I have decided to follow God, to follow Jesus but am I really ready to "let go of the old wineskin"?
I know I cannot please everybody with the desicions I make but one of my most precious priorities in life is to make my mother and father proud and happy of what I have become. I'd like to make desicions for myself but in the process I try to do it in a way that conflict would be brought to a minimum.
Lost na talaga ako. Last week sa church study I was decided not to wander away from the mainstream. Tapos sabi ni Ate Mabeth, "Our prayers are genuine but we can be genuinely wrong" At sinabi nga niya ang teachings ng Catholic chruch na umano'y hindi based sa Bible (hindi ko pa naman napapatunayan).
Bakit nga ba ako nag Bible study?
Gusto ko kasi mapagtibay ang relationship ko with God at gusto ko ng drive na pag-aralan ang Bible. Kasi on my own, madami akong hindi naiintindihan, madami akong na-mimiss-interpret. I thought the goal was to make me a better person, which I think I am starting to work on. May mga changes naman na ako mismo ang nakakapansin tungkol sa sarili ko. Mas mabuti ang anger management ko, mas masipag ako mag-aral (though mas malaking impluwensya dito ang humihirap na subjects), mas giving ako sa family ko at mas nagbabasa na ako ng Bible.
Pero ngayon, nakakalungkot man isipin, hindi ko alam kung magsisisi akong nag-agree ako mag Bible study. I am now pressured to form a conclusion to decide on something that is waaaaaaay out of my comfort zone. Gaya nga ng sabi ko dati, gullible ako at hindi ko naman kayang tanggalin yun sa akin ng buong buo. I want to know what others think, I want to see both sides of the coin. Oo, I want to play safe kasi never pa ako humiwalay ng paniniwala sa family ko. At saka feeling ko, I need to listen to what the Catholic church would have to say about these issues.
I know that there is an urgency in making up my mind to follow Jesus and I certainly have decided on doing so. Hindi ko nga lang alam yung "true church of God" o kung kanino ako dapat sumama so that I can change for the better. Ayoko mag-give in dahil lang sa pressure and I always think that I work better under pressure. At sana nga ang kalalabasan ko ay dyamante at hindi abo.
Lord, we praise and glorify Your Name. Thank You for all the blessings You have given us. Thank You for the people who have become part of my life, those who have given me the chance to know You better. Lord I pray for wise judgement, I hope to find the way that leads to You. Sana po mabigyan Ninyo po ako ng sign. Isang hudyat na magtuturo po sa akin kung ano ang dapat kong gawin. Hindi ko po talaga kaya magdesisyon ng ako lang. Kailangan ko po Kayo at gusto ko pong Kayo ang maging sentro ng aking buhay. Salamat po sa lahat ng biyaya, Panginoon. Amen.
wishing;
8:04 AM
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